Putting God On Hold

We are studying 1 John on Wednesday nights and the Pastor gives the three most important things in our walk, 1. Prayer, 2. Bible Study, 3. Fellowship. Fellowship I have down, any time any place I am THERE, I love the Church. Bible Study, oh yeah, it's a common interest my husband and I share, must see TV time has become must read time. But prayer? This would seem the easiest of them all... especially for me. I love to talk so a constant line to someone to gab with seems perfect! This is how it goes though... "Lord, Thank you for all the beautiful things today... you're amazing, Lord. Those birds outside are singing and... "*Oh is that the pen I was looking for earlier? FOCUS!... I wonder if God gets bored listening to people... FOCUS!* It's like my mind trails off into a random chain of thoughts which don't amount to anything. So I thought "Oh, I know! I'll write my prayers out!"... yeah, it got that A.D.D. that I had to write them out... to no avail. It's was about the same only in ink. So my day consists of little random bits of prayer. A friend Facebooks a prayer request and I repeat their need after saying Lord and tack an 'in Jesus' name, Amen.' on the end of it and that's all. Sometimes though I pray without words, like I just assume our Father will get the gist of my emotions like some alien communication you'd see on the SciFi channel. Does that count? Why can't I just pray like I do when I pray with the kids at night? We all know when you admit to a problem of any kind the first words out of any Christian will be (should be) pray about it. You see the circular issue there I'm sure. So I suppose asking others to pray for me would work. I just overall, more than anything, feel guilty. If I came to your house and you spoke to me randomly then trailed off into another room doing something else my feelings would be hurt! I wouldn't do that to another person so why am I doing it to God!? Am I taking His always available status for granted? I should be giving Him the deepest praises, concerns and joys I have and instead I'm giving Him the thought equivalent of cheap elevator music, as if our connection can be put on hold until I come back around. It's a shame. Here the Lord is being perfect and I can't scrape 4 undivided minutes together to talk and then listen. The closest I get is my late night prayer but that often ends with me snoozing away. Or sometimes I do get a lot out and its really just me venting or being so over come with emotion (usually distress or a quick praise) that He is my only option to get it all out. Is that fair? Well, there you have an honest description of my prayer life. It's a true shame.